you know the background music just seems to be pill cases popping sharpie ink on foil I wander if it would be better to be walking around with a gun to my head a gun somewhere still just unloaded I can’t even listen to music anymore just podcasts just people talking and when I close my eyes and fantasies it’s not death anymore just Gary Lineaker I assume my penis is somewhere in my doom scroll in my daily cake in my pack of cigarettes at Christmas know we have never really touched things I feel it so much until my cheeks set fire to themselves until my whole body is water park my penis is a search bar that gives you everything you want with a chaser of regret I think my body is punishing me for giving into less of it’s whims the small man in my brain needs a wine needs a line needs a pill needs just one last dab of a cling film wrap needs just needs I go so many nights saying no he stops me fucking.
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Jake Wild Hall is one half of Bad Betty Press, his debut pamphlet Solomon’s World was longlisted for Best Pamphlet in the 2018 Saboteur Awards. He is a multiple slam champion and his work has been published in magazines, anthologies and online journals. His second pamphlet was published in 2019 and he is currently working on his first collection.
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